I'm there in them, and I'm just living blah blah blah. But then I find, like, a whole section of the house, that's I never knew about. I never entered before. It's never used, but I go into it. It's like a complete, like, furnished everything there. Like, it could be its own house within a house. And I just never knew it was there. And I'm like, why didn't I know this is here? I could be using this this whole time. Like, it's it's and that's what creates this weird emotion of just like, what the fuck? It's always an inner house that lives in forever or just no forever. But then it I've I've discovered this part of it that's just always been it, but it's been completely untouched, that is, like, completely furnished and everything. And it's always just like, I need to use this, and then it it just never happens. But, there's the house and there's that just deep unsettling feeling. I don't know how to describe it, but within the house, I'm either in that house or there's a house next door to it. And the house next door is always sort of the same. It's a much deeper, darker feeling that comes from it, but it is kinda opposite. It's a house that was, I I guess, describe, like, a house that I lived in with, you know, the the unknown rooms and stuff, except it's been abandoned forever, and it's just decomposing. And it's as dark and it's it is just like I don't know how to describe the thought of it. But but it's always next to the house that I'm in in the house dream. And, it's just it's really I mean, both of the emotions are deep, but it is just like one is the opposite of the other. But, sometimes my dreams I'm only in the in the, in the decomposing house. Like, that that's all it is. Sometimes I'm only in the other house. But they're always next to each other. Sometimes I might be the dream might be I'm in the town and I'm seeing the house with the spare rooms. I don't live there anymore, but I remember it. And I wish I was there again, but then there's the decomposing house next to it. And I don't know. It's just that's been a recurring dream, and that's one of the reasons why I'm on PTSD when I bring in because I have that dream and I wake up and it's just I can't shake those emotions for an entire day. I just, those house dreams are why I was just like, I need to not do this. But anyways, we're at the party. I'm talking well, anyways, blah, blah, blah. We're in the party. We're doing our thing, bouncing around rooms, and then, Hale's like, hey. You know, you're come come come in here up in the attic. This is an interesting house, where my part my friends do these parties. I had nooks and crannies everywhere. It's just it's a gorgeous house. But, it's just like, hey. Here. I kinda just pulled back this thing, and then it was just in the attic, which was well, attic where rooms were. You know how the old houses with the frames, like, they have the little side things? Mhmm. Was there's like you just pulled this thing aside and then there's this little nook in there. And it was like fully furnished with like comfy things and little tea lights and whatever. And I was just like, oh gosh. Been in there and talked to someone. And that's when I was like, shit. Like, Sunrise has been my house dream, of this is here the whole time, and it's exactly what I needed. I just had no idea until it was just shown to me. And now here I am in it. And, but, I didn't like how this I never know about this for the last two years. But, anyways, that happened. Then we went outside. We're out there and talking. And that's when I realized so the fence between where I always see the coyotes, this time I saw the owl, but the fence to the next property, the next property is an abandoned house, and it's the only house there because it's in a corner. And I just I was like, wait. This abandoned house has always been here, and it is just decomposing. It's in the middle of shoreline. It's just like, how is this house like this? Like, how has it not been bought? Like, whatever. And it is just this overgrown, you can posing house right next to this house. It's always been this like special house, where all these parties and and things happen, but, but there's no other houses around it because it's on the corner. So it's this corner of the house, and then that you can post in the house next to it. And then I realized that and I was walking up that in a second. This is fucking insane. But, anyways, yeah, it was just nice. I was like, yeah. No. What do you think that means? Blah blah blah. Like, all these things. It was really good. Yeah. But then it was like, at least in in kind of a in a spiritual sense, I so I've been doing this. This is a moment for, like, five years. And it wasn't until, like, last year that I I finally especially being a recovering Christian. I was like, I never wanna work with spirits. I never wanna work with, I wanna do my own thing, and avoid all of that.
Your dream presents a rich tapestry woven with themes of discovery, duality, and the complexities of your emotional landscape, particularly resonating with your experiences, introspections, and recovery journey.
The primary theme in your dream is the exploration of a house that contains unknown rooms, representing aspects of your psyche or parts of your life that have been neglected or undiscovered. This new section in the house, furnished yet untouched, signifies the potential within you that requires acknowledgment and utilization. It speaks to the latent abilities, dreams, or desires that you have perhaps overlooked or are yet to explore. Your emotional reaction of shock and curiosity about why you have not accessed this space before suggests a deep internal yearning for growth and a sense of lost time.
This might reflect your journey of self-discovery—recognizing that there are parts of yourself or experiences from your past that, once acknowledged, can lead to healing and empowerment. The fact that you realize you've "always lived" with this space implies that you possess inherent wisdom and potential that has been dormant or ignored for some time.
Conversely, your depiction of the decomposing house with a "deep darker feeling" symbolizes the fears, traumas, or experiences you are trying to move past, particularly related to your PTSD. This house, representing abandonment and decay, elicits feelings of unease and serves as a stark contrast to the vibrant, newly discovered space. It suggests that while there is potential for emotional growth and exploration, there are also aspects of your past that may feel overwhelming or burdensome.
The juxtaposition of these two houses highlights the duality of your experiences—joy and sadness coexisting, the potential for healing versus the weight of unresolved feelings. It’s a reminder that while you possess aspects of resilience and hope (the new house), you also need to address the residual pain and loss associated with the old (the decomposing house).
Your dream’s transition to social settings, like a party, centers on your interpersonal experiences and social dynamics. Engaging with friends in a vibrant space mirrors your attempts to balance your internal struggles with a desire for connection and normalcy. The attic represents hidden opportunities or layers of your social life that you may not have fully accessed, paralleling your personal journey of discovering and embracing new aspects of yourself.
Interestingly, your mention of transitioning from a recovering Christian to exploring spiritual realms indicates a broader search for identity, belief systems, and how you relate with the unseen. The urge to avoid connecting with spirits could suggest an unwillingness to face certain emotional realities or fears associated with your past, connectivity to the old house. However, discovering that embracing this part of you can lead to spiritual enrichment parallels your journey—recognizing that the past holds lessons that can heal.
In conclusion, your dream navigates a path from darkness to light, highlighting the challenge of reconciling parts of yourself. It encourages you to explore the potential that exists within you while simultaneously reminding you of the unresolved aspects that still need attention. Engaging with both the hidden, potential spaces and the darker areas of your psyche is essential for your continued healing journey. The presence of the two houses encourages you to create a balance between acknowledging your past while moving toward a more unified sense of self, allowing you to have deeper, richer experiences—both socially and personally.